I've had a rough couple days. My hormones are all over the place and it is affecting my mood drastically! I'm pretty sure I'm in perimenopause plus my period is trying to start so my hormones are just jumping around like crazy! I've cried because I'm happy, I've felt like my marriage & life are perfect, I've cried because I'm scared, I've cried because I'm sad, I've felt like my marriage & life are a mess, then back to crying because I'm happy & feeling like my life is perfect. What a roller coaster!
My husband has been wonderful though. It's so encouraging to me that he is willing to help when I'm feeling like this. It's awesome! I love that he holds me & just lets me cry. I love that he talks me through the negative feelings and reassures me that things are good. I love that he doesn't get frustrated or irritated when I'm all over the place emotionally. I love that he constantly is telling me how gorgeous and great I am. He loves me so much and I'm blessed to have him in my life.
It hasn't always been this way. I used to strike out at him when I was feeling hormonal. I'd be mean and say hurtful things. I'd act as though he didn't love me at all. He was different too. He would get stubborn and angry with me. He wouldn't try to help at all. He wasn't understanding at all.
I honestly don't know who changed first, or even when the changes really occurred, but thankfully they are different now. I reach for him instead of pushing him away when I'm feeling emotional or hormonal. He is my rock and helps me through the hard times. I praise God for that! I am so thankful that we are as close as we are now. It's such a blessing to have such a wonderful husband and such a strong marriage!!
The New Me