Raw Honey Giveaway #3

The Mohawk Valley Trading Company offers the highest quality organic and unprocessed natural products they can produce such as maple syrup  and raw honey.

Their raw honey is unpasteurized, unfiltered, unprocessed, unheated, unblended and is available in 5 varieties. Raw honey contains all of the pollen, live enzymes, propolis, vitamins, amino acids, antioxidants, minerals, and aromatics in the same condition as they were in the hive.

For eons, honey has been used for coughs, it is a safe alternative to over the counter cough syrup especially for children; Cough Medicine vs. Honey

MVTC is sponsoring a give away of one, 1# jar of their Adirondack Wildflower Autumn Honey (estimated  value $16.00 SHI included)

Awesome, right?!?

Growing Up

My baby is growing up.  There is no other way to put it.  I'll be honest, it is hitting me hard this evening.  As you all know, she is away at college.  She's doing great!  Much better than anyone expected, if we were all telling the truth.  She's adjusting beautifully and has made lots of new friends.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for her.  Thrilled!  But I'm sad too.  We've always been so close.  It's just weird and hard for things to be so different now.  I hadn't talked to her for a few days - weird in and of itself - and when we did talk today it felt like she'd rather be doing anything but visiting with me.  I didn't mention it, of course, and I'm glad she called even if she didn't really want to.  But it just hit me that things are changing.

Because she has been homeschooled.  And since she's an only child.  And I've never worked.  We are very close.  I know it'll stay that way but yet it is different.  She's growing up.  There is really no other way to put it.  She's growing up and gaining independence.  She has a life of her own.  She is beginning to feel as though her home is at college not here.  I knew these feelings would come but I honestly didn't expect them this soon.  I thought she'd still be missing us, missing home and be excited about coming for a visit.  Instead, she's sad about leaving her school, her dorm, her friends, and her routine.

Again, I know that deep down this is what is best.  It's the right thing.  The natural thing.  But it's hard.  I'm just having a mom moment I suppose.  I'm feeling lonely and sad and unneeded.  I don't even know if that is actually a word but that is how I feel - I'm not needed anymore.  I should be happy that she is doing so well, and I will be happy with time, but right now I'm just missing my baby.

Bye,
The New Me

Polo Shirt – Golf Shirt Giveaway # 2 Winner

Congratulations to Carole!!!  You are the winner of Polo Shirt Giveaway #2!!  I've sent you an email and hope to hear from you soon.  Everyone else....don't be discouraged because there will be lots more Polo Shirt Giveaways coming up soon.  Remember to keep checking back!  If you can’t wait, contact Crooked Brook  for polo shirts or golf shirts.

Eye Opening Jealousy

Gosh, I'm in a bad place right now and I don't like it!  A little background first, I hate to admit it but I've been terrible about flirting and checking out guys.  It's something I've done since I was a teenager. It's fun!  But I've recently found out that it really bugs my husband.  Since then I've really been trying to stop.  I'd say I'm doing pretty well but it is a constant struggle.

Well, this morning I got a little taste of what my husband must have been feeling all these years.  Actually, if I'm being honest, what he did is NOTHING compared to the things I've done.  Anyway, we were at the grocery store today.  Everything was going great, he was being fun & flirty with me, he kept telling me how cute I was and so on.  Then we got to the front of the store and he started looking all around at the cashiers.  I got jealous immediately!  And as a result he got stubborn and distant immediately!

Now, let me explain, there is a girl that works there who he's known for years.  He used to work with both her and her husband, who are now divorced.  She's nice but I just have an uncomfortable feeling about her.  I feel like there is something there with my husband.  Not that anything has happened, I really don't think he'd ever do anything like that, just that he's interested in her.  I'll be honest - I don't even know if it's just that he thinks she's nice or if it's more than that - but it makes me uncomfortable.

We've talked about it in the past & he's totally reassured me.  He says there isn't anything there and that he only wants me.  He never flirts or even looks twice at a girl.  He's constantly telling me how gorgeous and hot he thinks I am.  He loves me so much.  But still.....I'm jealous.

Basically after that happened in the store he has been distant and grumpy.  I've been distant and grumpy.  We argued about it a little when we got home. He thinks I'm being silly and it makes him mad because I've always been the one that flirted.  I feel sad and jealous still because he's being too stubborn to say the things to make me feel better.  I want to hear all the lovey stuff and he's refusing to do it.

I know I'm being silly.  I know that he loves me so much and doesn't want anyone but me. I shouldn't be mad.  I shouldn't feel threatened.  But I do and I wish he'd make me feel better instead of being mad at me.  Of course, the more I bug him the more he pulls away.  I need to just be quiet and wait.

This whole thing has been very eye opening though.  I can't even imagine how he's felt all these years!  I feel so bad about how I've acted.  I have flirted and checked people out all the time.  I'm sure he's felt like I'm feeling right now.  He's actually probably felt a lot worse than this.  I'd even imagine, as much as I hate to admit it, he's probably even wondered if I've ever cheated or if I ever would.  That makes me so sad.  I feel so bad about that!!!  Not that I've ever done anything like that but I still feel bad that he would even question me.

I have decided that I am done with those kind of behaviors!!  Period!  No more flirting with anyone but wonderful, wonderful husband!!

Bye,
The New Me